Something has changed in my work. I always wanted to do good work, but this is more.
I feel like Han Solo when he saw Lando take out the Millennium Falcon.
For some reason, on this project, my thoughts always come back to this - I may never get to make something like this ever again. I hope I'm wrong, of course. But the result of that is that I don't want one frame to make it to air that I'm not 100% happy with.
Even to the point of throwing out whole episodes.
Because, once the show is finished, it has a life of its own and can never be redone. And I may never get to do it again. There may never be more.
But there are realities to the business end - budget and time. People can't afford just to throw out whole finished episodes. Well, maybe they can. Maybe things can be shifted, budgets juggled and producers can get a little bit creative. After all, we all want a great product, don't we?
The idea of a last chance changes everything.