Someone said that to me - that nobody reads blogs except other bloggers. That may be true, I don't know, but why would that matter? Does it matter? Does it even matter if anyone reads?
I don't know.
Well, George W. Bush is home in Texas. That's nice for him. And we're all speeched out right now and, like with most things positive, the comedown is a bitch. I'm left wondering, what am I doing? What is it... that I'm doing? I've been rambling a lot on this blog. Moving from subject to subject. It began with my depression but, as it turns out, things have been pretty okay lately. Well, a lot of things have been crap but that's just because they've been crap, not because I have some sort of chemical imbalance making me miserable when things aren't, in fact, crap. Sometimes it's not depression - it could be your shit life.
And I talked about animation. I don't have any animation news. It's not a news site. And I don't have great tips for you (oh, but if you're just starting out and going for an interview, enough with the goddam life drawing - if we can't see it applied in your animation drawings, it's no use to you. And don't keep showing earlier and earlier work until you leave the director with his last memory being the first poxy flip book you made at age 6 - hey, maybe I do have some tips). So there's a limit to what I can talk about in the day to day life of an animator.
And then there's just life stuff.
And it's all okay, I guess. Most of it's stuff I really want to put down somewhere.
But it's 2009. A new year. Do I need more structure on this blog? Do I need a reason for its existence? Do I need it to lead to something? To have a goal to work towards with it? Something I could do for the entire year so that I look back at the start of 2010 and see what I was working towards? Or should I just allow it to be my play place? Do I need Depression Mondays or Animation Fridays or The Sunday Reason For Not Commiting Suicide (if I miss that one week, Depression Monday comes with 10% extra free depression)? Or should I just shut the hell up and get on with whatever it is I'm doing here?
I don't know. What do you think?