Thursday, June 19, 2008

Changes

I've been pretty down lately. Losing my dog hit hard. The dog people among you will know what I mean. Those of you who aren't dog people, well, take my word for it that it's hard. 17 years is a long time. And I had to just get on with it at work and be professional and all that, and in everyday life too, so I was just burying how hard this is inside and it has been kind of eating away at me.

And I've had tough weeks and tough weekends around all that. Things, generally, have been pretty crappy. Then there's the thought of this godawful company outing.

Well yesterday I had managed to track down some of that Indy Lego I was looking for. I went out to get it at lunchtime and got absolutely soaked on the way back - how did everyone else know they'd need coats and umbrellas? And on the way back I was thinking about this company outing. I've been dreading it from the moment it was brought up. I can think of about a thousand different things I'd rather be doing and most of those involve sitting on my couch not being out with people I work with.

But then I thought, okay, I'm going. Accept it. Who knows, it might not even be awful. Maybe, just maybe, I'll find something to enjoy. Maybe not.

Suddenly, one little weight was lifted. It's still a crappy company outing and it's just one little part of my life but I think what it did was signify a willingness to just get on with things. Some forward momentum. I've still got some life to live and I'm going to just go do it.

A small change but a change nonetheless.

It helped.


Then I was rained on again on the way home and I realised I was just being delusional.

3 comments:

Mr. Trombley said...

Dear Sir, I like that background figure with the comb-over and umbrella. He looks like Bert from Sesame Street.

Lots of people like to joke that Bert and Ernie are a homosexual couple. I like to think that they're brothers: Bert an out of work musician and Ernie an accountant.

Leisl said...

I'm so sorry about your dog.
I like the little paragraph you wrote about accepting things. Sometimes, that's all you can do.

Bitter Animator said...

Mr.T, I'd say you're right about Bert and Ernie. I'm pretty sure Bert is homosexual but they're just brothers who live together.

Leisl, thanks.